I have a love / hate relationship with each and every one of my paintings. It’s a vicious circle and this is what it looks like:
Like all new relationships, my love affair with a blank canvas begins with excitement, butterflies in my stomach and limitless fantasies of how wonderful our future will be. The lust stage. It’s the feeling that nothing this special or profound has ever existed before. This love (the new painting) will be unlike all the others that have come before it.
This lasts until I get to the point where I absolutely hate the piece that I am working on and I convince myself that I have ruined it beyond all hope. This happens every time.
This is when my painting and I take a break. Sometimes our break-up lasts overnight and sometimes for several weeks.
But like a moth to a flame we always reunite.
Inspired and excited once again, we join in passion and creativity. There are always challenges, but we persevere and learn to work through them. This is the trust building, love stage.
Nonetheless, there comes a point when the painting is almost finished and I find myself holding back, hesitant to put paint to canvas. This is the commitment (or fear of commitment) stage. The point when you have to make a decision; flake out and give-up or to plunge in headfirst and just go for it. It’s always scary at first, but once I commit, it’s incredible, and it’s like the painting completes itself. From that moment on I am forever in love with that painting.
I am currently working on 5 new paintings for the new year and I am in a different stage of love with each one…and I’m loving every minute!